Unusual Normalcy
In simpler words, to be with someone not only able to receive what I give, accepting it without reservation, but also giving in an equal measure everything of themselves – is very comfortable, and literally all I need.
In simpler words, to be with someone not only able to receive what I give, accepting it without reservation, but also giving in an equal measure everything of themselves – is very comfortable, and literally all I need.
I don’t feel confident about my own self-confidence. And this is very disturbing…
I gave up on myself, started to compromise, and offered more than I could afford. Self-sacrifice. Which was probably the worst thing I could ever do.
My closest confident will remain this blog still now. And that’s fine just the way it is. On the condition that I reconnect with the outside world.
As much as I need to go through all this, there’s a time for looking at the past – and a time to move forward. That time has come for me, and I will not step back.
I still to this day believe that I missed something very important, something of substance.
I will complete and improve that list in an individual post. And giving into details as to what I really intend to achieve in the course of my life.
Something’s been dormant in me, awaken just recently. A current of passion, to which I decided to give a less abstract form. A different kind of love that’s been taking over. A drive to do what’s best with all the keys I hold. And giving life to a few projects I’d left aside.
All of it misdirect my attention and alter my intuition. It creates a lot of interference. Sometimes I just don’t know who or what I am anymore…
I cannot in all conscience put words onto this. There’s no knowledge in what is only experience.